In an endless cycle,
the feminine
as ancient
and eternal as nature,
constantly rebirths herself.
Come, into the motion of the
origin of all things.
Come, be rocked and lulled
by the Mother Deep.
Remember to nourish her
as she
nourishes you.
From Wisdom of the Crones
I am trying very hard to not feel overwhelmed but sometimes it is just unavoidable. I have a stack of work to do before we can even think of leaving town. I have no help to do all of this. Artists just are not usually administratively capable. And that is the case for my dear Sky. I am very far behind on a lot of projects that are very important. I wish I could afford to pay someone to come in and do some basic administrative stuff. I wish I could afford a maid!!!! It is really hard to keep the house in order and get all of this work done. I am exhausted and we have not even left to drive to L.A. yet. I will be doing all the driving and I am unfamiliar with L.A. plus I literally hate traffic. It makes me physically ill. I have to deal with that as well. I wish I could be a superwoman but I just am not! I have to try to maintain a great attitude while feeling frustrated, overwhelmed, and exhausted. I have new people to meet. I want to be my usual outgoing self!!!! But, I’m not sure I’ll be able to because I’ll feel so exhausted. Maybe if I can just have one day before we drive down to do absolutely nothing, I’ll be able to do it. Time will tell. If anyone is reading this, please do send positive vibes our way. I know Sky will be a success. I have no doubts about him. But, I’m not sure if I will be. And that makes me a bit sad. I’ll be fine but I’m just overwhelmed right now I guess. Man, I hope nobody reads this actually…. jeez…. what a basket case I seem to be. Snap out of it!!!! Okay I’m better now. Forward!!!
One of my regrets in my life (and yes, I do have just a few) is not doing the research I should have to prove my tsalagi (cherokee) heritage. The last living relative that we know of has now passed away. I do know that we are of the Eastern Band of Cherokee that still exist in the North Carolina territory and that we did not go on the Trail of Tears. I look more like my Scottish heritage than my Tsalagi heritage although my biological father definitely looks Tsalagi. My father was raised in Northeastern Alabama and considered himself part of a poor Indian family. He had several brothers and sisters but was so ashamed of his poverty that when he turned 18 and joined the air force he rarely spent time with his family. During the time my parents were married (approx. 4 years) I met my paternal grandparents once. In my Dad’s later years he does regret not spending more time with his parents as an adult and regrets feeling so ashamed of his poverty. When I went to live in an ecovillage and was writing my Dad about it, he could not believe that I would CHOOSE to live the way he was FORCED to live as a child. Because of my basic animist beliefs, I feel that my Tsalagi roots are very much a part of my DNA and I wish to learn more but it is hard to separate the truth from the made up Cherokee teachings. I just try to go with what resonates the most with my soul and heart. The mountains of North Carolina definitely feel like home to me.
Guest House
This being human is a guest house
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they are a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.
~ ~ ~ Rumi ~ ~ ~
“Oh what a tangled web we weave, When first we practice to deceive”
~ ~ ~ Sir Walter Scott ~ ~ ~
Dignity
Time helps us honor he nobility of self.
What we think of ourselves is now more important than what others think of us.
Celebrate the unique you.
Acknowledge your worthiness.
Those who make you feel insecure can’t do so without your permission.
Respect yourself.
~ ~ ~ From Wisdom of the Crones ~ ~ ~
I want to stand as close to the edge as I can without going over.
Out on the edge you see all the kinds of things you can’t see from the center.
~ ~ ~ Kurt Vonnegut ~ ~ ~
There is a Christian Left. What does that mean? To me, being a Christian – a true Christian – is to follow the example that Jesus “Yeshua” gave to us. He gave this to us in his sermons and in his example. One of the most important sermons was The Sermon on the Mount. Yeshua gave us the solemn blessings that many of us know as The Beatitudes:
Sky and I both are committed to our holy Father, YaHoWha.
YaHoWha is the sacred name of God.
However mean your life is,
meet it and live it:
do not shun it and call it hard names.
Cultivate poverty
like a garden herb, like sage.
Do not trouble yourself much to get new things,
whether clothes or friends.
Things do not change, we change.
Sell your clothes and keep your thoughts
~ ~ ~ Henry David Thoreau
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