From the beginning
women have had a “sixth sense”
for finding the true nature of
a thing or person.
This quality reminds us
that we are connected
to a much larger
comprehension and
understanding than our own.
These insights, hunches
and gut feelings support us
in our quest for the truth.
Be open
and trusting of your inner sight.
If it feels right,
it most likely is right.
Look within.

The card I drew today from my “Wisdom of the Crone” cards

Integrity takes long thoughtful walks. When she comes home, her pockets are full of stones and shells and feathers. She is the daughter of a weaver, and she has inherited her mother’s sense of texture and color, though she prefers the potter’s wheel to the loom. She makes ritual vessels for the local temple. It was through working with clay that integrity grew to understand that the body is also a vessel, beautiful, sturdy, empty, and sacred.

Integrity loves the intersection where sculpture becomes dance. She has a supple spine and lovely muscles. She knows sign language and has often worked as an interpreter. When she speaks with her hands, it is not in grand, dramatic gestures but in soft, subtle movements. Watching her hands dance, we hear stories that we have no words for.

~ Ruth Gendler, Book of Qualities

I am surrounding myself with white light.

I deflect all negative energy away from me.

I am a good person and I will not allow anyone to negate that.

Evil is as Evil does.

I want no part of it and I will not take part in it.

I will not allow anyone to drag me down into the depths of their hell.

Night

We have another life between
sunset and sunrise.
The dark net of night falls upon
us allowing us to rest and
regenerate.
The dreaming subconscious
uses our imagination to teach
and enlighten.
Dreams can be the first stepping
stones to manifesting reality.
Rest in the field of all possibility.
Travel beyond space and time.
Sleep peacefully and
remember to
dream.

From The Wisdom of the Crones

One of my regrets in my life (and yes, I do have just a few) is not doing the research I should have to prove my tsalagi (cherokee) heritage.  The last living relative that we know of has now passed away.  I do know that we are of the Eastern Band of Cherokee that still exist in the North Carolina territory and that we did not go on the Trail of Tears.    I look more like my Scottish heritage than my Tsalagi heritage although my biological father definitely looks Tsalagi.   My father was raised in Northeastern Alabama and considered himself part of a poor Indian family.  He had several brothers and sisters but was so ashamed of his poverty that when he turned 18 and joined the air force he rarely spent time with his family.  During the time my parents were married (approx. 4 years) I met my paternal grandparents once.  In my Dad’s later years he does regret not spending more time with his parents as an adult and regrets feeling so ashamed of his poverty.  When I went to live in an ecovillage and was writing my Dad about it, he could not believe that I would CHOOSE to live the way he was FORCED to live as a child.    Because of my basic animist beliefs, I feel that my Tsalagi roots are very much a part of my DNA and I wish to learn more but it is hard to separate the truth from the made up Cherokee teachings.  I just try to go with what resonates the most with my soul and heart.  The mountains of North Carolina definitely feel like home to me.

. . . is amazing. Despite many negatives (doesn’t everyone have those?), I am a truly blessed being here on this earth. Sometimes I feel guilty that I am so blessed. I am 49 years old. I feel I have lived several distinctly different lifetimes just in this one that I exist in now.

If anyone is reading this, you are coming in to my life in the midst of one of those lifetimes. Some things are constant through each lifetime but each lifetime has usually brought major change. I’m not afraid of change. That is a good thing but it also means that I end up not being a very consistent person in this sojourn here on earth.

I am a firm believer that we are spiritual beings practicing being human – rather than human beings practicing spirituality.

I’ll leave you now with that thought.