trying …. November 9, 2007

I am trying very hard to not feel overwhelmed but sometimes it is just unavoidable.  I have a stack of work to do before we can even think of leaving town.    I have no help to do all of this.  Artists just are not usually administratively capable.  And that is the case for my dear Sky.  I am very far behind on a lot of projects that are very important.  I wish I could afford to pay someone to come in and do some basic administrative stuff.  I wish I could afford a maid!!!!  It is really hard to keep the house in order and get all of this work done.  I am exhausted and we have not even left to drive to L.A. yet.  I will be doing all the driving and I am unfamiliar with L.A. plus I literally hate traffic.  It makes me physically ill.  I have to deal with that as well.  I wish I could be a superwoman but I just am not!  I have to try to maintain a great attitude while feeling frustrated, overwhelmed, and exhausted.  I have new people to meet.  I want to be my usual outgoing self!!!!  But, I’m not sure I’ll be able to because I’ll feel so exhausted.  Maybe if I can just have one day before we drive down to do absolutely nothing, I’ll be able to do it.  Time will tell.  If anyone is reading this, please do send positive vibes our way.  I know Sky will be a success.  I have no doubts about him.  But, I’m not sure if I will be.  And that makes me a bit sad.  I’ll be fine but I’m just overwhelmed right now I guess.  Man, I hope nobody reads this actually…. jeez…. what a basket case I seem to be.  Snap out of it!!!!  Okay I’m better now.  Forward!!!